What the Frick is wrong with me

I seriously don't get it. I've been actually happy today up until the point when I came home. Since then I've just felt the type of loneliness that used to drive me to all of my old bad habits. And for some reason I can't bring myself to just pick up the stupid phone and call people as I've somehow convinced myself that they'll be too busy.

The fact is that things have (mostly) been going so well recently that I'm starting to think that they're TOO good and that the other shoe must be just about ready to drop. And that considering how good things are there must be something absolutely hideous waiting around the corner to balance it all out (I have some pretty f*cked up views on how Karma works).

I am seriously torturing myself right now running all the bad scenarios through my head, as well as bringing up some memories that just plain hurt. I thought I was past all this.

I seriously hope this is all just PMS talking. A new 'joy' I recently discovered. The cramps weren't hideously unbearable last month, but they came with the worst feeling of despair and hopelessness of my life, to the point where I actually curled up on the recording studio sofa and wept my eyes out even though there were people in the room

Oh gosh - I feel like it too. I am really happy when I am doing things, but I feel really lost and muddled and down when I do not have so many things to do.
Also, I am really happy with all my friends but I am really sad and upset for the next day because I really want to do everything over again, but we cannot at-all, yet.

Also, please do not worry at-all. Just because it is lots of good things it does not mean it is lots of bad things really soon too. Please enjoy all the good things. It is really important!

Funny how busyness changes everything...

Quote: veggiedude, Dec 2010

Funny how busyness changes everything...

Resuurect another old thread and I will hunt you down and do so many bad things to you that guantanomo will look to me for ideas in how to torture people.


/rage!!!!

Quote: Rick Grimes, Dec 2010

Quote: veggiedude, Dec 2010

Funny how busyness changes everything...

Resuurect another old thread and I will hunt you down and do so many bad things to you that guantanomo will look to me for ideas in how to torture people.


/rage!!!!

Apologies for my reaction. You just happened to make the poorest choice in resurrecting threads I can think of. Add a few drinks into the mix and my rage counter stops working and ends up set to 11.

We dont have many rules here, however a very key one is not to resurrect threads that are more than a few months old. Generally because things like this can happen.

VR has been around for a good many years and has seen many members come and go. A lot of us essentially grew up on this forum and like many people have things from their past they would rather not see unearthed due to no longer being that person. This is why necro-ing threads is massively frowned upon here.

Apologies for my outburst but seeing this post right now was not great. The fact the person who posted this is my girlfriend made me panic a he'll of a lot. So I apologise to you for the massively aggressive instant reaction. I was wrong to do it, however you need to appreciate why I reacted that way.