Singledom

Hope you're bearing up okay me dear.

It's easy to look from the outside to say he was a sh*tbag and you're better off without him, but you obviously loved him cos you wouldn't have been with him if not. Tough times ahead but it does get better with time.

The same kind of thing happened with my sister and her bloke
he was being a sh*tball, got her and himself really into debt and she needed to get out, she got into a proper rutt with everything.
ended up going to live in greece for 6 months & came back a completely different person.

she came back, saw another guy for about a year, but he was really really immature and she binned him off. a few months later her and her previous ex met up for a chat, this was about 3 years ago now, they moved in together a couple of years ago and now have a 7 week old baby together. time does change a lot as they both grew up a lot while apart, when they got back together though "it was like we were never apart" so they've had it really good.

i don't want to have it in my head that one day he'll change his mind though, that his feelings will change.
i don't want that hope to be there as it's likely he won't. and he's been thinking about this for a long time as it is, so he's likely very sure about this.
he's been saying for a while that he doesn't know what he wants generally, from life, from work, from anything. it just keeps coming up that he wants to "have fun and stop worrying"

i'm not entirely sure he really understands how feelings change over time, he told me the "spark" has gone... which feels like a non-reason to me because the spark went a long time ago for me. we've been together nigh on two years, it had to go some time.
as it does with everyone. you start to get comfortable with people, realise their habits and everything and they start to get to you but then you realise they're human too, just like you and you have all sorts of annoying habits too which will annoy them.
i mean, the way i feel about him now is completely different to the way i did when i first realised my feelings, but i think in a way, he was expecting to feel the same about me forever and a day... I'm not sure.
or maybe he has a different definition of that "spark"

at the end of the day though, people always react differently when things start to move on from the "fantasty stage" as it gets called. seems that he couldn't really manage to get past that.
from now on, what happens, happens. that's it i suppose, i can't do anything else now, other than trying to move on & not go batsh*t insane

It's annoying. i can't really blame him for how he feels, but i'd like to smack the sh*t out of him for some things he's done recently while keeping me hanging.

Quote: Hare, Feb 2012

So. his new bird sent me the most abusive email i have ever recieved in my life yesterday from a fake email address

wonderful!

I'd never hit a woman. However, that's cos I'm a guy. You're a woman though, so kick her in the c*nt.

Really, using a fake email address to send you personal abuse with no good reason shows what a cowardly little b*tch she is.

Quote: Hare, Mar 2012

she had reason, sort of.

Sheeee didn't. Not at all. You start a relationship with someone, especially when, as I see it, they've blates split up with someone to be with you and you do not, if you are right in the brain, start sending abusive messages to the injured party.

You are the injured party, Lis'. Believe that. He knew what he was doing, he should expect the abuse because he's kept you in relationship limbo for months, probably whilst deciding in his brain whether he wanted you or this bint, that's the cold hard fact of it. And THEN, when you vent, as you have a right to do, he goes and tells her what is meant to be private info you have shared with him. And she, rather than sympathising with a lass whose bloke she's practically nicked, goes after you. From a fake e-mail, not even having the guts to say it as herself.

She is clearly a few screws short of a flatpack. He is a knob who has done this to you and then not even tried to make your recovery easy. They deserve each other and you deserve better.

Now he best stop upsetting you, or it's Biebertime.

too many unnecessary expletives in it to bother reading it again.
it's hilarious towards the end though "true love" i wish i could declare i'd found my true love after 4 days in someone's company, but then again i'm not 14
and i apparently have no idea what the word "love" means anyway...

haaaha.

he actually threatened us with small claims court last night, over my laptop - a gift.
which i remember quite clearly he said: "you keep the laptop, that's yours" on the night he left me.
it was not long after he complained about the fact i can't speak french, as he didn't even want to break up with me in my own goddamn language and not long before he went and had a p*ss on the playing field.

i mean, i wasn't going to be petty about asking for things like that back* - a gift is a gift, no matter what happens.

i could have been petty and in that case would have taken two thirds of his shirts, his thick socks, "his" thick airwalk jacket, book light, shower gels, deodorant, pint glasses, mugs and the chest freezer. i would have gone as far as demanding my bag of brussels sprouts back as well if he'd been a proper d*ck about it.

he dropped it though. so that's sound.

'course, i only got about half of the sh*t i'd leant him back, not going to see the rest of that again. but whatever.

*=i personally didn't even ask for any of it back to start with, other than my headphones.
all this has been done through other people, i couldn't be arsed getting involved with it, he just assumed that the withheld number that turned up on his phone was me when it wasn't, it was faye when she was sat outside his house in her mums car.

anyway, since stuff is staying where it is now, here is jake enjoying his newest toy, courtesy of butthead. - his precious stuffed snake.

I hate myself. For so many reasons.

George and Mark, what have you been doing to yourselves?